In two months time, we have gone from this:
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| Bryan on day 2 |
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| Bryan at 2 months |
While I know the socialization will be great for Bryan, it still breaks my heart a little (ok, who am I kidding, it was A LOT!!) to drop him off. I know it was harder on me than on him. Just thinking about it yesterday had me in tears. And I was fine this morning until Violy said, "Oh, Bryan! We are going to have so much fun. Say goodbye to Momma" which caused me to immediately burst into flooding tears. I was tempted to grab Nugget from her loving arms and run back to the car as fast as I could and lock us in the house and play as a family forever and ever. I will spare you of my list of a million reasons why I know that won't work and is a fairly terrible idea!
This is really good for all of us. I can't not-work right now and Bryan needs the exposure to other loving adults, and very fun children. So, I will just sit here and think about him all day. I get to pick Nugget up in 3 hours and 30 minutes. Not that I am counting. Ok, maybe I am. A little. (wink wink!)
Ah Jenna, please know that you are not alone with these emotions. I always had Steve drop the girls off and I picked them up.....less tears for the mom. It was also nice that that actually worked the best for every bodies schedule:)
ReplyDeleteIts hard. Bottom line. I stayed home with Liam for the first 13 months of his little life, and the day I first dropped him off at daycare, I cried and turned around and got him..by the 3rd day, I was better. I still have days, that my heart pulls for him when I leave, but now days, he says, "bye mama...you leave now" and that makes it easier ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's hard, but it does get easier, and you're so right – it's GOOD for him to be exposed to other children. I'm glad you've found someone that will take him into her home. We were lucky enough to have the same experience for Ellie. I think it would be much more difficult to drop him off at a facility vs. Ms. Violy's home! Miss him terribly, but enjoy those snuggles when he's back in your arms!
ReplyDeleteAll the commentors today are correct. Trust that you are doing THE RIGHT THING for all of you.
ReplyDeleteI had to work and I had to have daycare, I was lucky and had an in-home provider who was with us for 7 years. She still calls every Christmas to check on "her" boys. They are 36 and 40.
The social aspect is great for Bryan, and Miss Violy sounds wonderful. I am glad that her group is on the small side, 4-5 little ones provides for lots of time for individual caring.
Hugs to your family from the river.